I learned a huge lesson today… even when I am on game and taking extra steps to ensure success… things still go wrong.
My brother was laughing at me today and called me a perfectionist and yes… I suppose I am a bit of a procrastinating perfectionist. I hate to be wrong. I hate to not be in the know. I hate for things to not go as I planned.
Do you know how I feel? I work hard to make certain all is right…. all is covered…. all is under control. And then BAMO…. the project or scenario or situation screws itself up and I’m the one that looks like I was wrong. BUMP THAT. I was not wrong.
And to prove it… I dug through the garbage. YEP…. today I dug through the smelly garbage…. to prove…. that I…… was not wrong.
Now in my defense… my brother was making fun of me. (and yes we are grown adults) and I did need to prove to HIM that I was right…. but as I stood there with my hands down in the garbage looking for the one small piece of paper that would prove my OVERPOWERING RIGHTNESS…. and as the guys that I was working with sang, “LET IT GO”…. and as I stuck my finger straight into a container of used cream cheese…. my inside voice started to laugh.
My inside head voice… you know the one…. it started to giggled and then, it too, broke out in the overused song, “LET IT GO” in harmony with the guys. What was left to do…. I smiled. Pulled my garbage hands from the trash can. Looked at those grown men, who were enjoying my perfectionist behavior that had just pushed me into the trash and I started to laugh.
There is no such thing as perfect. Not at work, not at home and not in our lives. Perfection is unattainable and being right is not all it’s cracked up to be. So I did what an old friend taught me many years ago…..
I let being right roll off my shoulder, down my arm and when it reached my hand I flicked it off. I let it go…. the bonus was the hand I used to flick it was covered in cream cheese.
Let it go…. or you might just find yourself in the trash….. literally!
(DISCLAIMER…. for as much as I like to be right and on top of things…. There is another side of me that just doesn’t give a damn. It’s interesting to watch the two of them fight it out… hence, the procrastinating perfectionist. I mean…. look at this blog for example. I started by reading everything I could and trying to be perfect and then just like with the hunting in the trash episode…. I just decided to “Let IT GO!” Have some fun and enjoy not being perfect or right all the time. Maybe? Maybe not…)